I know it’s not even technically “winter” yet, but it’s starting to feel like it, and that’s bad news bears for me. It always seems like the colder that it gets, the less I feel like doing anything at all other than laying in the bed with a heating pad and a cup of coffee. It’s not that I fall into a creative rut, believe me, there’s plenty to be done around the Creative Chronicle homestead. I just can’t motivate myself to get anything done.
Take this journal page for instance. I just bought a new sketchbook style journal about a week ago. It took until three days ago to even take it out of the bag and attempt to start sketching (which I did without ever leaving the bed). I finished the page yesterday and snapped a few pictures. Did I immediately jump online and start my blog post? Nope. Even though it had been daunting on me that I hadn’t posted since Halloween, I opted for going to sleep early instead. That’s why I’m now forcing myself through this unmotivated “blah”-ness, and getting this journal page up right now (before I’ve even had my coffee, no less).
I’ve got to kick these winter-time blues…and FAST. The holidays are weighing pretty heavily on me right now, as I’ve resolved to do as much DIY Christmas as possible. There’s also the fact that we’ll be having Thanksgiving with my family and a Sunday Thanksgiving with Mister’s family, and at the moment I’m completely clueless as to what to make and have been roaming Pinterest seeking inspiration. I want to do some impressive dishes you don’t always find on the holiday dinner table. I’m also literally knee-deep in crochet projects for Christmas, as well as some other pretty nifty DIY present ideas. I had to invest in some very helpful crafter’s gloves to help take away some of the pain in my hands from all the action I’ve been subjecting them to, especially with the never-ending granny square afghan I’m making for a gift (plus there will soon be a second one started for another gift). I can’t wait to post some pictures of the completed projects, as I’m pretty sure the majority of those who will receive the gifts don’t ever visit Creative Chronicle.
It’s time to get my butt in gear. It’s time to grab the coffee, the crochet hook, and plant myself down in the rocking chair and get back to work! Maybe I’ll throw on some sunglasses and beach music to convince myself that it isn’t so chilly outside.
A few weeks ago, I stumbled across Jamie Ridler Studios. I’m always looking for inspiration from other creative individuals, and I can’t even begin to tell you about all the wealth of inspiration that can be found within her blog. It’s filled with beauty, magic, and more than a few prompts to get your creative juices flowing. What I found to be extra exciting about the blog though was that, when you sign up for her newsletter, Jamie includes a free guided meditation in your welcome email.
Meditation has always been something I have been incredibly curious about. What isn’t appealing about a relaxed state of mind? The ability to free yourself from worries and concerns? Unfortunately, as hard as I try, I find it completely impossible. Whenever I close my eyes and start to relax, that’s when the engine of my brain immediately fires up. It’s like my brain is filled with what I like to call “thought-vomit”, anything that can come up, WILL come up. Try to focus on clearing my mind and automatically insecurities creep in or worries about what I may have forgotten during the day. Believe me, it couldn’t be more irritating.
My resolution? Keep trying. I’m not one to give up after a failed first try. I’m determined that through the resources provided by Jamie Ridler and a few other blogs I’ve been following, I will eventually get the hang of meditation. I will gain control of my own thoughts. I will obtain the peace of mind that I crave.
(Oh, and as for Jamie’s Wishcasting Wednesday – What do you wish to let go of? I wish to let go of my own insecurities and strained trust concerns. Bear with me, folks.)
As the weather gets colder, I feel less and less like doing anything at all. When the real cold hits, I hate to even step outside. Right now, though, is perfection. October, my favorite month, is right around the corner. It’ll be pumpkin spice everything to eat and drink, Halloween, all the wonderful decorations…what isn’t to love about it? The temperature is starting to drop here, and all I want to do is fill a mug with some hot chai, grab the nearest book, and curl up under a blanket for awhile. I did curl up under my blanket last night, but I brought along a sketchbook and some regular old crayons. I love working with crayons because I feel like a child every time I start to color.
This was the first doodle to flow out of the crayons, and I decided it would go just perfect in my journal. I can already feel the warmth of a nice steamy mug of tea. Perfection! Mister saw this one and requested a crayon sketch of himself. Still focusing on the idea of “warmth”, I decided he should be wearing my favorite hoodie of his that I used to wear around on the chillier evenings. I included his silly Gilligan-style hat that he always wears during pledging, which starts next week and always happens during the most frigid weather. When thinking of warmth, I can’t help but include Smokey, his cat, who just may be the softest, fluffiest cat ever. He’s often served as a foot warmer for me, and he’s just too adorable not to snuggle with.
Told you he’s too adorable not to snuggle with. 🙂
As I attempt to work in my journal, it becomes more and more evident how little space I possess to do the things I love most. All art/craft supplies are generally crammed on or under a fold out sewing machine cabinet. It makes doing anything in that area really restricted. I wish I could have a whole room dedicated to creating. I could have space to actually sew and not have to go on a quest to find my fabric (which right now is split up between boxes in the house and boxes in a storage building). I could organize my paints (currently tossed together in a basket). I could have tables to spread out my journal and materials (instead of how I usually sit on the bed beside the sewing machine cabinet and pray the paint won’t fall on my comforter). I could work with larger canvases ( a dream! If I tried to set up an easel in my room right now, no one would be able to get around it). It’s frustrating to be stuck in such a cramped space. My only hope is to one day have my own place with plenty of room to create and imagine.
CREATIVE CHRONICLE RANDOM CAT PIC
Jenks has earned a new name : DESTROYER OF STRINGS!
She’s such a handful, love her heart. She makes it almost impossible to work with anything that dangles. It was a fit trying to get these ankle bracelets finished for Mister and myself.
My rut has finally hit. Combined from the exhaustion I feel after work every day and the sickness that I feel slowly creeping into my body, I’ve found myself in that “BLAH” state of mind, tired and unmotivated. I’m trying to rouse myself out of it, but nothing seems to have a lasting effect. I did try working in my journal some, but it’s taking some major effort for any inspiration to come flowing. Any suggestions for what to do when you hit your rut?
Here are a few less-than-incredible journal pages, but I feel happy that I was at least capable of producing anything while feeling like this. I even had to journal while laying in bed.
Also, you know Jenks likes to randomly make an appearance here at the blog. I couldn’t resist snapping a picture when she decided that Mister’s laundry hamper was her new favorite spot to chill. He even picked the hamper up and carried her around for awhile without a single complaint from her. So here you have it – RANDOM CREATIVE CHRONICLE CAT PIC 🙂
Of course, she’s deeply intrigued by that tiny hole in the hamper.